my cousin has cancer..she had been diagnosed about a year ago with the stage IV lung cancer. at first, when we all found out, it was a big shock and a disbelief.. however,even though there's no cure in this late stage of her illness..she and the family stayed optimistic and seemed to be doing "well" with the treatments. on wed nite, i found out that she's been really sick and the drs told her family to prepare..so my mom's flying over to korea tomorrow morning. my cousin, also my mom's niece..is only 7 yrs younger than my mom. they grew up in the same house until my mom got married..so they are like sisters..with many beautiful memories together..so it hurts so much to see my mom going through this.
even though i knew she had cancer, and knew something like this would be coming..but at the same time, i didn't think this time would come. my heart aches so much for her and her two kids, who are around my age..for my mom and dad who had been so close to her.. i can't even imagine what it would be like for her family..esp for her husband who may be blaming himself..as he was a heavy smoker and there might be some bitterness toward him within the family because of that.. please pray for her that she may be able to resolve any unresolved issues, and spend time with her loved ones..and that any pains..physical/emotional.. would be replaced with peacefulness. also as my mom is leaving for korea tomorrow, that God would watch over her and comfort her as they spend time reminiscing together.. and also for her family, our relatives, and my family..that God would be with us throughtout this process and make us even more closer to each other and to Him..
for the longest time, i was "anti-guitar". i loved the sound of the guitar and everything about it, except when it came to playing it. bc i couldn't play. and did not want to learn it largely bc compare to piano where i can control my fingers to change the notes and the color of the tones, i could barely position my fingers to play a chord on a guitar. it was frustrating. but then found out how important it is to be able to play the guitar in music therapy sessions, decided to break whatever walls i have about this instrument and make a friend out of it. while getting to know this instrument, it also reminded that there's more to just playing the right notes, but in harmony with other instruments, listeners, musicians, lyric, melody... while recording these songs, i felt so at peace. it's not the greatest sound and little off tune, but i felt so in sync (nsync? kk) with one of my fav worship songs. hope He liked it too. that's all that matter ain't it? amen sista
we fall down we lay our crowns at the feet of Jesus the greatness of your mercy and love at the feet of Jesus and we cry holy, holy, holy and we cry holy, holy, holy and we cry holy, holy, holy is the lamb
"i never loved nobody fully always one foot on the ground and by protecting my heart truly i got lost in the sounds..."
- from a lovely song by regina spektor
this song i can totally relate to. but trying to break out of that protective shell now. bc it came to me (kinda late)..that even though i don't mind being single now, i would like to get married someday (before my eggs dry up!) but if i m like the above lyric all the time, then the less chance of getting to know that other person(s). duh. but sometimes don't really know how to. but one thing for sure, just be genuine and be be yourself. my humble ten cents on relasionship 101. you relationship gurus or..students, what's your tent cents? or 50 cent kk
her phrasings...omg. i get goosebumps, chickenbumps and duckbumps everytime i watchi this!!!
